Asking for a friend.

It's 11:20 and I should really be asleep, but I'm not.

You know how you try to stay positive and think positively. You tell yourself over and over again that everything happens for a reason, the right people will come into your life at the right time, things will get better, etc. Well, that's been me for the last year. I am constantly telling myself that everything is happening for a reason and that 2016 will be even better than 2015 was. I WAS WRONG. I've managed to keep a better attitude about things, which could be a plus, but I'm not sure if it's because I have a better attitude, or if it's because my life just continues to fall apart so much that I'm not really sure what to do anymore. I feel that it's the second one of those two, but all you positive people would say otherwise. One thing I have learned throughout all this is that people come and go, sometimes without even saying goodbye, and sometimes you have to be the one to say goodbye. For me it's mostly been people come into my life for a short amount of time and then they leave. I'm still trying to figure what exactly it is that I do or say to make them leave. I'm in need of a friend.

April 2015-April 2016

  • Dumped/Broken heart
  • Moved to a new city
  • New job
  • No friends
  • New job (again)
  • Moved (again)
  • Lost job
  • New job (yet again)
  • Barely making enough money to pay my bills
  • Trying to go back to school

I kind of feel like I'm drowning in debt, stress, and being alone. Yes, I know that I have family, but I need friends, or at least one friend. Sometimes I don't know if I want to cry or be mad and give a big fat middle finger to the people who pretend to be my friend for a little while and then up and leave me. I've had that happen to me so many times throughout my entire life, you'd think I'd be used to it by now.

I know you have to get through the storm in order to find peace, but it would be nice to have a friend help me get through the storm.

IN OTHER NEWS:
Thunder made it to round 2 of the playoffs. Beat the Dallas Mavs in 5 games (should have been 4). It was an ugly and physical series. Never really cared for Dallas, but never really had a problem with them either until this series. I am curious though...Mark Cuban, what do you consider a superstar? 36 pts, 12 rebounds, & 9 assists ISN'T superstar material? Don't anger Westbrook, cause he'll get his revenge.

Alright, good talk. I'm out.

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