Hello Love...

Sometimes my birthday is a fairly normal day for me. Other times it's one of the hardest, and dare I say, worst days. Being adopted is the best thing that ever happened to me. If I wasn't adopted who knows where I would be or what I would be doing. But knowing that, still doesn't make it any easier on days such as Mother's Day or my birthday. My birthday is this Wednesday (September 17), which means my mom gave me up for adoption 22 years ago. I'd give anything to meet my mom face to face one day. To know what she looks like, how she acts, and even what her voice sounds like. My mom is my hero. She is the strongest, bravest, selfless woman in my life. She is the reason I'm able to do all that I've accomplished. I also give credit to my parents, obviously still couldn't have done anything without them. But my mom wanted me to go to school and graduate high school. She wanted me to have a career and be able to be happy. With all that being said, I'm re...

I am not perfect. Perfection is something that is unattainable by any human being. So, sorry to burst your bubble if you think you're perfect, or if anyone has ever told you that you were. They lied to you. You're not, not even close. We are so far from perfection it's laughable. We mess up everyday, even when we think we didn't, we probably still did. It's easy to say things like I accept my imperfections, or my flaws make me who I am. Yes, all that is true, your flaws do make you who you are today. If you didn't make mistakes and learn from them, then you would still act like a 5 year old in Walmart. But there is also a difference in changing who you are and trying to make yourself a better person. Don't understand what I'm saying? Let me explain. If you change who you are, most of the time you're only changing to make someone like you, or to fit in. You change how you act, how you dress, and how you speak. All so that you fit in with a certain cro...

I'm the type of person who doesn't care what people think about me. Sometimes that's a good thing and sometimes it's not so good. Here's an example of why it's a not so good thing... I've always been the person who doesn't really have great control over my mouth and over my emotions (I blame my Korean jeans for this one. I hear Koreans have feisty tempers). Growing up with 3 older brothers, I learned to be tough and how to defend myself. So once I got into middle school, I wasn't exactly the nicest kid in town. I kicked, I punched, I yelled, and hit all the guys in my youth group. If they made me mad, or just caught me on a bad day, then it got ugly. I knew they were probably stronger than me, but I didn't care. That didn't stop me from doing whatever I had to do to get my point across. I didn't care if I hurt them, as long as I made my point then I was good. Now that I'm older, I look back and realize...I WAS ONE HECK OF A MEAN PERSO...

"Do what you love, and love what you do." That's a pretty basic statement that people say, right? I love hair. I love styling it, and really when I say styling, I mean styling. Curling, straightening, up-do's, etc. I can do everything else like cutting, coloring, perms, but that is what I love more than anything. Stupid to go to cosmetology school for 2 years only to get licensed to curl someone's hair, right? Even though I don't do all the cutting and what not, doesn't mean I don't love it. It doesn't make going to school a waste of time. I still love it and I still want to pursue a career in hair. That will never leave me. But something else I love just as much is photography. Whether it's taking pictures of people, sports, nature, whatever. I love it. I'm not great by any means, I'm just an amateur, but I do a good enough job that people don't say my pictures suck (Or so I'd like to think they don't say that). Yesterday I...

I wish I could go on exotic vacations, or go shopping whenever I wanted, but I can't. Why? Because I'm just your normal, everyday, work my butt of to make nothing kind of girl. I wake up only to go to work and barely make ends meet. But that's okay, I'm okay with it. Again, why? Because my parents, from the time I was very young, taught me how to be repsonsible and budget my money. Seems kind of lame, I know, but once I was 16 and realized how many kids don't pay for a single thing, I was okay. It makes a difference when you have something handed to you and when you pay for it yourself. Almost cliche, I KNOW . Sheesh, but it's the truth, it really is. I've been working since I was 15, and I've only ever had 3 jobs. My first job was a good first job. I learned valuable skills that I would need to know at other jobs. I won't go into detail about each job I've had, but what I'm leading up to is each job and each paycheck taught me responsibility...

I am one who does not like change. In fact, I hate it. I hate how everything is going well and then suddenly your schedule is all mixed up. I don't like being pushed out of my comfort zone, but that's what change does. It pushes you so far out of your comfort zone that you don't even know what to do with yourself except accept it, learn from it, and grow with it. My 3 year old niece and I are a lot alike in the sense that we both hate change. I, being almost 22, can handle it better than she can (most of the time). If my brother & sister-in-law know a big change is going to happen (like when she was going to have a little sister) they do a good job of preparing her for it. Easing her into the situation and talking about it with her. But sometimes change happens so fast that you can't prepare for it. It just happens and you have to find a way to handle it. My dad just resigned from being the pastor at our church for the last 20 years and my parents are moving an hour...

Tattoo's; they can be a controversial thing most of the time. Yes, the bible says your body is a temple, but the body is also my own. I'm free to do whatever I want to my body. If I choose to fill it with tattoo's, then I can and I will. If I want to paint myself blue like an avatar, then I can and I will. I'm not saying don't listen to the bible, or that the bible is wrong. I'm just saying that people give a lot of crap to those who have tattoo's saying things like "what will that look like when you're older?" Or "you'll regret that one day." Do you not think we think these things through? I only have 1 tattoo at the moment, but I'd like to get a few more because I like them, and my tattoo's have meaning behind them. 3 years ago my brothers and I all went and got tattoo's together. I got my birth name and a lotus flower (my Korean name means lotus flower) tattooed on the back of my shoulder and my brothers all got...